OH MY WORD!!!

The weirdest thing happened to me tonight. I haven't blogged in AGES as most people know. Awhile back, I started a new blog because I couldn't remember where my old blog was, or the URL, password, etc....So tonight, while messing around on my computer, I decided to check out my mom's blog. In that process, I thought, "Hey...I think I'll post something on my 'new' blog" that I hadn't posted on since February. Go figure I couldn't remember the email address or password I had used on that one. So decided to create yet ANOTHER new blog and in the process attempted to do so with my current email address. Lo and behold, I already have an account with that email address. So, I reset the password, and here I am....at my OLD blog with all of my postings since I began blogging!! I almost want to cry because I thought all of my writing had been lost!

I have had so much happen to me in the two years since I divorced my husband that I could really honestly write a book. I've always wanted to write a book, but for now I think I will settle for my good ole blog. Even if no one ever comes and visits me, at least I'll have my writing for prosperity!

In short, what is currently happening with me right now is I'm still attending school to become a paralegal; been working part time about 10 hrs a week at my old haunt, KFC, to satisfy TANF requirements; invited my next door neighbors to live with me 3 months ago when they got evicted from their home and my "social workers" heart couldn't allow them to live on the streets. Ten people living in my teeny tiny house. It's been....FRUSTRATING to put it mildly. Just today, tho, they finally signed a lease on a new place and my girls are more than ECSTATIC that we will have our own house back again!!

Found out that my ex husband is in jail and has been since May 15 (which would've been our 8 year anniversary, ironically!!). Recently reconnected with his son and his mother who we have hardly seen since the divorce. I'm a little nervous about that, but will take things as they come.

I stress every day; about money; my future; my girls' future; if I'm a good mom or not; how many mistakes i'm making with them. But also guaranteed of their love and affection towards me whenever I have to leave them with Grandma and it takes me 15 minutes to get out of the door with all the kisses and hugs they have to give me.

The single life has been difficult (major understatement) but I am so blessed and grateful to have so many people in my life who have been willing to help me!

I have been attending a non-denominational church in town for the past 6 months or so that I have come to love. The praise band is fantastic, and the speakers are so dynamic. I rarely walk out of a service there with dry eyes. I work late on Saturday night, so Grandma Dawn takes the girls that night, takes them to church at the Nazarene church, then I pick them up there and take them to Crossroads. They get doubly blessed on Sundays!

I could say sooo much more and I will because I have missed writing. It is my outlet and it's been so long since I've done any writing. I am so excited I found my good old trusty blog!

And now I'll probably be up all night re-reading my old entries and reliving things.

I'm back...I hope!!