Jul 22, 2005

Could the weather BE any hotter?!?!

Could I be any more miserable?!?! I'm not kidding. This is the hottest summer I can remember in recent history. And the first part of the summer, the air conditioning in our house wasn't working. We were all some hurtin' units at our house; particularly at night when trying to sleep. Thank the lord for small things like air conditioning. I'm just not looking forward to seeing my utility bill this month.

Hubby and I are going camping tonight. Can't wait. It's been years since we have done so and I'm really looking forward to it. Fiesty is staying with my Mom and Care Bear and Yoda are staying with Grandpa P. Should be a good time.

I can't wait for fall!!!

Jul 1, 2005

The Fourth of July

Well, here we are at yet another 4th of July weekend. I can't get over how quickly time flies!! I have pictures of my kids, family and other things as my screensaver and this morning some pictures popped up from the 4th of July 3 years ago, just a month and a half before my darling little girl "Care Bear" was born. "Yoda" appeared in the newspaper that year playing in one of the many games provided to kids at the local park. I remember that year so clearly. It was blazing hot; I was 7.5 months pregnant; we were at the park enjoying (not so much me, though) the events of the day. The lines were very long for all of the kids activities and I remember standing there in the heat wishing I could find somewhere cool to sit and take the pressure off of my feet. To be honest, I don't even remember where we actually watched the fireworks that year. I'm sure it was the usual place, as it always has been. But I can't remember where, and I can't remember who with we watched them. I just vividly remember standing in those lines, wishing I could dump a huge bucket of cold water over my head.

The following 4th of July was Care Bear's first. She had just turned 10 months old. I remember that year much more fondly. I had gotten her an adorable Raggedy Ann outfit that was red, white and blue for her first 4th. We again spent the day at the park with my in-laws and with my parents enjoying the atmosphere, food and games. That evening we watched the fireworks with my parents at the old parsonage. I was anxious to see Care Bear's reaction to the fireworks that year; but what did she end up doing?? SLEEPING! Oh, well. She enjoyed the pre-activities at least.

Last year, I had another new addition to add to our 4th festivities. Little did I know at the previous year's fireworks that I would soon be adding to our family another little girl, "Fiesty" who came along last May and was only 1.5 months at last years activities. She did unbelievably well throughout the chaos of the day. There was tons of walking, just as much heat, and not a whole lot of relaxation. I was a little concerned about how the day would go with such a young baby, but she did remarkably well. She slept through the fireworks last year, but this time Care Bear stayed awake. It was so much fun to be able to see her excitement and enjoyment of the activities. She danced and sang, and oohed and aahed at the fireworks. This year I can't wait to see how my little Fiesty reacts. Nothing in the world scares her, and I'm hoping the same goes for fireworks!

I hope everyone enjoys and SAFE and HAPPY 4th of July!!


May 18, 2005

Haven't posted for awhile

I haven't had the energy. Plus, it's kind of hard to get motivated to type out a bunch of stuff, when in all likelihood, not a soul in the world is reading this. Hmmm....oh, well. Good therapy I guess.

I'm so tired. Does this ever change?! No. Do I foresee it changing in the near future? I can hope. I decided earlier this week that bedtime routine at my house is going to change!!! I don't know where I went wrong with my kids, I don't know how it happened, but I have the unfortunate luck to have three kids who do not go to bed well, and when they actually get to bed, they don't stay asleep. I have officially entered the twilight zone, in that I feel like I walk around all day and night in a daze.

I watch Supernanny, I have friends who give me advice on how to get my kids to go to bed at night, but the actual act of doing it seems so tiring in itself. But I have to do it, or I fear that in short time, I will have a nervous breakdown, or simply die of pure exhaustion. I truly think I will enjoy life much more if I can actually get my kids to go to sleep in their own beds at the same time every night and sleep all the way through. I think that would make anyone's life happier. I see my friends whose kids go to sleep at night, stay in their beds and sleep all the way through and I feel nothing but jealousy and envy. They obviously did something at the very beginning to get their kids to do this rather than have to "re-train" well into childhood. Looking back on things, I should have put them down in their beds when they were approaching sleep; not all the way into sleep. But it was just so nice to cuddle and look at them while they were sleeping so sweetly and soundly. And at the time, I didn't realize that. Call it new mother ignorance. Now I am paying for it. UGH. One friend I have says that I can re-train them to go to bed at night, but to be prepared for a week or two of (in HER words) complete hell. But it will be worth it in the end when they have learned to go to sleep. So I am trying to decide when to begin the "re-training" and week of super-duper fun. I'd like to do it when I'm not tired....but I just went into why I am so tired, so I guess if I wait til I'm not tired, it will never happen. I'm preparing to start the battle tomorrow night. I have created a picture "Night time chart" for
"Care Bear" so that she can see what we do every night and in what order to get ready for bed to make the transition maybe not quite so painful. Fiesty is who I worry about the most. Let's face it; I am not looking forward to this at all. But, if they can truly be re-trained, and my efforts will be paid off, then I am willing to go through it. *sigh*. This should be fun.

If I'm not dead on my feet, I'll try to remember to post on Friday after the first night of training begins. WISH ME LUCK!!

Apr 22, 2005

It's finally Friday

and it's been a rather long week. Both of my little girls have been feeling a little under the weather this week and that apparently makes them more clingy to mommy than ever. I don't know if that's what it is, or if they are both going through separation anxiety. I expect that from Fiesty; this is prime age for her with that; but Care Bear is 2 1/2, I thought I was through with this with her. Going to my paying job is becoming increasingly difficult and stressful for me when my children are both sobbing uncontrollably and clinging on to my leg before I go. What is worse; working part time so that we can have more money and making my kids miserable when I go, or being constantly stressed out and not having money, but staying home with my kids? I don't even think me not working is an option right now, but I'm about ready to say, "Forget it!" and just quit my paying job. I'm miserable when I know they are sad. Today I'll be on a bus tour around town for three hours helping acclimate new students to the University next year to our town, so therefore will be without a phone for 3 hours to check on them. I'll go through withdrawl. My heart strings are so attached.

I suppose since I am here at my paying job today, I should start doing what they pay me for. Here's hoping for a relaxing, enjoyable weekend.

Apr 20, 2005


GRRRRR!!!! Now I know why I haven't done a blog. I can't figure anything out; i.e., I can't figure out how to post pictures.....yes I downloaded that "Hello!" thing and it's not helping one little bit...I can't find a single instruction. I'm trying to post links, I'm following the instructions and it's NOT WORKING!! Maybe I'm not as internet savvy as I thought. *sigh* Thought there was at least one thing I was good at! ;-) J/K Anyway, if anyone happens to be reading this and can happen to give me advice on how to improve on this added irritation I added onto my life, please help!

Welcome to my blog!

I'm in the year 2005 and have just now figured out what a "blog" is. I like to consider myself internet savvy, but somehow this little phenomenon has managed to escape me. I'm sitting here at work today, on a fairly boring day, wishing I was at home with my two little girls who are feeling less than wonderful, and I just decided, "I think I'll create a blog." You know how that goes. So, I went to "ask.com", entered my question to Jeeves, "How do I create a blog?" and here I am! (Good ole Jeeves!)

Anyway, I'm not sure what the likelihood of me actually posting regularly on this blog will be; I only have internet access a couple of days a week, but whatever; we'll see.

For those of you who may be logging on to this blog expecting to find great and intellectual posts of the political persuasion, or world events, or such are in for a huge disappointment. Does this mean that I do not follow politics or world events? No, it does not mean that, but at this current juncture in my life, things revolve more around kids, laundry, kids, dishes, kids, wiping snotty noses, vacuuming, kids, going to the park and (yep, you guessed it) KIDS! So, the daily antecdotes revolving my kids and all that goes in the life of a mom in average-town, USA is probably what you will usually see. Add your own comments, anecdotes, and if you do have wonderfully intelligent comments to add, please feel free!

This is my SO CALLED LIFE! :-)