My cousin Julie very appropriately named this current situation I am in, "Bedrest Bootcamp" and it couldn't be more true.
To be completely honest with you, I think my doctors are totally over-reacting and I am just taking a bed up in the hospital that could be used by someone in a much more dire situation than I, but what do I know. My babies are measuring small, but so did my other two girls. And here is the thing; wouldn't you think if the babies were in some sort of distress that they would be showing distress in some of these millions of tests they are running on them every live-long day?! Their NSTs (non-stress tests) are always perfect; they are scoring perfect on their bio-physical profiles; their heart rates are perfect; there is no question in anyone's mind that they are having no difficulty moving--BELIEVE ME. But I am not a doctor and I am told this is where I am supposed to be, so here is where I am. I feel like a lazy, fat slob sitting here in this hospital bed having nurses wait on me hand and foot when I feel absolutely perfectly fine. The last time I had a long stay here was when I was here for pneumonia, but then I was really, really sick and hardly remember a single detail of that stay. Believe me, I am aware of every single boring moment here this time.
I miss my girls. I am greatly distressed that the final days/weeks before two more children enter our chaotic lives I am spending here strapped to a hospital bed rather than being able to hang out with them and do fun things with them before I no longer can do that with ease.
Then of course, not an hour goes by when visions of my utterly disastrous house enter my mind. We are talking utter and total disaster. Not a thing has been done to it since I officially went on bedrest which I believe was almost two weeks ago. Add to that Christmas mess, clean laundry piled up all over my house and dishes everywhere and you've got a recipe for yuck!! It is so bad.
Thank you all so much for your nice comments and your prayers. You will never know how much they are appreciated. Emma and Kate could be here as early as next week. We'll see. In the meantime, I am trying to keep myself from going nuts by knitting hats for my big girls and the babies with a cool kit that my cousin got for me and playing on this laptop that the hospital lent me. Is that cool or what?! Oh, I'm also over-dosing on Law & Order: SVU. I've seen two marathons since I've been on bed-rest. It's been one of my favorite shows for years and I fear that once I leave here I may never be able to watch it again!!
I'm going to get my mom to take one last belly shot of me and maybe pictures of the little knit hats I'm making. The fruits of my "labor". (HAHA....pun intended).
I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and has a blessed New Year! I'll be ringing in 2008 right here in this hospital bed. I'm really starting to feel sorry for myself now.
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Hang in there girl!! Keeping you and those sweet bundles in my prayers! Several churches in Ky are praying for you!
Don't worry about the house - that too shall pass...
Hi Kristen~
I've been keeping up to date through your mom and just wanted to come over here and say that I'm thinking and praying for you!
I can totally understand how hard it is for you to stuck at the hospital when you miss your girls and feel like there's so much for you to do!
On the other hand, there will be plenty for you to do, as you know, in a few weeks or so! For now, your job is to rest, rest, rest.
Hang in there, and know that many of us are praying for all of you!
~Tammy
Hi, Kristen! I know you're bored and think your hospital stay may be unnecessary, but far better to be safe than sorry. What if you didn't stay and some kind of crisis developed before you could get back to the hospital?
I'm still praying for you and the babies. I know it's easy for me to say this from several hundred miles away and far removed from your situation, but in a years' time what will your messy house now, matter? Just keep yourself as healthy as possible and concentrate on getting those babies here as healthy as possible. The house and other things will be taken care of sooner or later.
Happy New Year, Kristen. Take care of yourself and the babies! ;o)
Love and hugs,
Diane
Hey girl...SO good to finally hear from you!!
I almost started crying when I read this post; knowing how badly you want to be with your girls before the 'chaos' kicks in. But at the same time, use this time to REST while you can. Even if it's boring!
I'm so glad you have such a wonderful mother who is so willing to help you (and who lives so close by) so she can help you get back on your feet once you get to come home WITH YOUR NEW BABY GIRLS!!!
I'll trade you for a few days! I'd love to have a forced rest while feeling healthy!
And at least the piles of laundry are clean!
The bottom line is, Kristen, the babies are going to be born before they should have been, so whatever your doctors are making you do is best for them AND for you.
I'm so glad the hospital is providing you with a laptop. Turn off the TV. Daytime TV bores me beyond anything I can stand so I totally understand that it's making you nuts. So turn it off and surf.
Good for you, knitting things for loved ones. And you know what? I know you're bored but my goodness, take advantage of this opportunity to be bored. Once Emma and Kate arrive, you'll so long for being able to say you're bored. Laying around in a hospital bed will be but a distant (and probably fond) memory.
I know your family and I trust that by the time you and the babies arrive home, your house will be in order. I can't believe they'd let you walk into a domestic disaster.
Take good care of yourself and your baby girls and try to enjoy this respite. It may be a long, long time before you have the opportunity to lay around being bored again.
Trust your family. They love you. And trust your doctors. They have you and the girls' best interest in their knowledgeable hands.
I've been saying this all over the web, all night, but in your case, I truly wish you a happy new year. Two new babies. Sigh. SUCH a blessing, Kristen.
xoxo
There will come a day when you look back longingly at bedrest! Soon you will forget what rest means! You are in my prayers along with the twins and your entire family! Just relax now!
You are in exactly the right place, Kristen, for you AND for those precious babes of yours too. The Cleaning Elves will no doubt have sorted your house before you go home, and that is just fine. If I didn't have an ocean between here and there, so help me I would be over with my duster as well. Not that I am partial to cleaning, you understand, but it is fun to blitz someone else's home!
2008 is going to start with great blessings for your family, so relax and make the most of the rest while you can!
Good Morning Kristen,
I have been praying for you and your Babies for a while now. I have been visiting your Mom's blog for a while as well. I know you don't like being there on "Bedrest Bootcamp", but do what the doctors want you to do. Once your girls arrive, it's going to be a very long time before you can get any kind of rest. I know GOD is watching over you and your Babies. GOD IS IN CONTROL. Don't worry about your house Kristen, I'm sure Family members will take care of it for you. You have a wonderful and loving Family and I know they will help out in any way they can. I would like to wish you and yours a "HAPPY NEW YEAR" from our Family. I hope and pray that 2008 will be a great and wonderful year for you and yours. I have added you to my blogroll so that I can keep up with what's going on with you. I really enjoy visiting your Mom. She is a sweet and wonderful Woman. Take care my friend and have a great Monday. May God Bless You and Yours.
Hugs,
Karen H.
Try not to think of it as bed rest... Just rest period. You're going to need it! :o)
Holding you and the dear wee ones in my prayers!
Kristin you are where you need to be so hang in there! My twin nieces born at 29 weeks had to spend 6 weeks after their c-section birth in the neonatal unit. They had to be moved twice because of babies right next to them with MRSA (deathly staph infection), they were fed another babies breast milk and had to have their stomachs pumped (still fears of HIV etc.~ hello this is someone elses body fluid), and numerous scares with not breathing. They are 4 months old now and we think fine but please keep your babies "in the oven" until they are done! This was all very scary and you want to prevent it at all cost. God will give you the strength you need and you are covered with PRAYER! Before you know it you will be home with your 2 bundles of joy!
Hang in there, Kristen! I can imagine how frustrating it must be to want to enjoy every last moment with your older children before your babies are born and you can't. I would get depressed just laying around when I know there are a million things that need to be done and I feel well enough to do it. I don't think I can cheer you up because I'm bummed just thinking about it! Try to enjoy these last days, weeks of peace and quiet. It sounds like you have a few things to keep you busy. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
BTW-How far along are you now?
I'm SO glad to see a post from you! :-) I've been praying for you and your girls, and will continue to do so. I can certainly understand how boring it must be to be on bed rest when you're feeling fine. A close friend of mine had to spend her last 4 months of pregnancy on bed rest. It was tough, but she did it and you will too! But I'm sorry. I'm sure it's tough at times.
If I lived closer, I'd go clean and organize your house myself! :-)
Take care of yourself, Kristen! And know that people across the country are praying for you! :-)
Samantha
Stay put! And enjoy the rest while you can. Life is about to get really nutso. :)
Glad that the knitting is keeping you occupied. I bet the hats are really cute.
I love SVU too but geez, it can really psych a person out after awhile. Watch some HGTV to balance it out. LOL!
Ugggggh. Bedrest is the worst! hang in there-enjoy the last peaceful moments while you can. :) At least you have your computer, right?
Praying everything goes well for you and your family.
Kristen, I have followed your journey and have definitely been praying for you! I am a veteran at bedrest after having 2 preemies, 1 at 26 weeks and 1 at 27weeks. I was told that every day in bed is 3 less days your little ones spend in the NICU!
You can do it!
Oh I am so sorry! Being down is so hard. Especially this time of year. Reading anything good? We will be thinking of you over here!
Dearest Kristen,
I can well imagine how much you wish you could be at home right now but I know you'll do anything to make sure those precious babies inside of you stay put for a while yet! Don't you worry about the mess your house might be in...maybe you'll have some good friends go over and clean it up for you:-)
I'm so glad that the hospital was able to lend you a laptop...at least it beats having to watch tv or read all the time! lol Just know that I'm thinking of you.
New Year is a time for celebration of love, of life, of friendship. It's the time to thank God for wonderful friends, and to bring to their lives as much magic as they bring to ours...so here's celebrating our friendship and praying that its magic continues forever. Happy New Year to you and yours dear Kristen! xoxo
Kristen...I come to you by way of Dawn...It is wonderful that you have a laptop so that you can blog and surf the net.
I wanted you to know that you are on my prayer list and have been for a while now.
Take care of you and those precious babies....it want be much longer until you will be holding them in your arms. I know that you miss the others at home but, for now you must work on getting these babies and yourself through the next few weeks.
May you have a restful nights sleep and a Happy New Year's Day tomorrow!
Angela
I'm so glad they got you a lap top! I've spent months flat on my back in bed, so I know how boring it can get. Just hang in there and listen to lots of Clay while you're waiting. ;)
Hi Kristen! It could be my first visit to your blog, not really sure.. :) But, as you are stuck on bedrest, you need cheering up and every comment will help with that, I think! So, from one mom-of-many to another, keep your chin up, don't worry about the house (the mess isn't going anywhere, get to it when you get to it...maybe enlist family to help?)
And above all, have a Happy New Year and get some rest (yes it's boring, so may as well sleep). I'll be checking back in to see how you are!
:) T
We would all love hats! And scarves, and mittens...you get the idea. Girl, you stay put in that bed! although, I can't imagine! Yeah for Emma and Kate, I can't wait to see pictures! Have I mentioned lately that I lovethiernamesmadly?
I read your mom's blog. I've been praying for you and I will continue until your two new babies enter this world safely. I know it's difficult to be forced to have bed rest and leaving your other children. I'm sure the doctor's being careful is a good thing.
May this new year bring you more than you and your family could ever hope for.
Thinking of you :-)
Praying everything goes well and you don't go completely bonkers while you wait!!
WISHING YOU ALL THE BEST FOR THE NEW YEAR! ;)
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